Not in a bad way. In a good way. I can't believe how much better I feel.
I decided that I'm not going to talk or interact with him for the next 90 days. The only time I am going to respond to him is if it is a direct request regarding our kids.
I came to the realization that talking to him sets back my progress. It makes me feel worse. It's funny because that's exactly how I felt when we were in a relationship together. I was unhappy way more than I was ever happy.
I can't believe how happy I am that he did what he did. It took me a little bit to get to this point. I was feeling worse because I started to engage with him again. We argue just like we did when we were together and it got old.
It feels good to have someone I can talk to that is supportive and loving. He understands me and actually wants me to be happy. I'm not used to that.
I know that I am growing every single day. I'm feeling very positive about the future and what is in store for me. I'm going to get back into streaming while I play video games. Borderlands 3 is out and that's going to be the game that I stream. I've already decided that I am going to pursue things that make me feel good.
I can't believe he just up and decided that he's not going to be a gamer. That right there is as fake as someone can be. How can you give up something that was such a huge part of your life? I could never do it but to each their own. I'll never stop gaming. It's in my blood and I love it. Next time I post - I'll share a link to my Twitch profile. I'm going to start streaming there and then eventually I'm going to make the jump to Facebook.
So excited at every aspect of my fucking life!! Things are feeling so good and I'm so glad that they went the way they did. <3
