It has been a while since I updated this blog. Things took a turn back at the end of March.
Of course, in January, I ended up staying and trying again to work things out. I keep putting all of this effort in hoping that things are going to get better.
I don't want to play the blame game in the post. I'm not going to point any fingers at him or me.
I am going to say this - we just don't mix.
The fighting never stops.
The yelling.
The name calling.
The arguing.
I was told today that I am a stalker because I signed into his cell phone account this morning to see when his bill was due.
My phone service was cancelled and I didn't want there to be no phone on in our house.
So, I changed the password (I could not sign in)
I was actually the one who setup the account because I bought his phone and paid for the first months service. I didn't think signing in was going to be all that big of a deal.
He was really angry though and started calling me a stalker and throwing accusations at me.
I am so tired of trying to find out why he acts like he does.
When I get the courage to leave, I always chicken out and come back. I will be gone a few hours and the babies won't listen to me, I will get scared of the responsibility and I come back.
That is never happening again. I am making a plan and I have goals for ending this relationship/
1st of all - I am going to start putting away money each and every time that I have money for a new place to move into.
2nd of all - I am going to spend my extra time outside of working for Apple to work solely on my business. That is what I want to be doing and it is only my business what I am doing with my spare time.
3rd of all - I refuse to engage in a fight with him. If he starts to call me names - I WILL NOT RESPOND. I will allow him to "vent" and as quickly as I can, if I can, I will walk away from the situation.
4th of all - I will look for a new place to move to daily. I am not that picky about the area I end up in.
5th of all - I will be as nice to him as possible.
I will be blogging daily from here on out. I really need somewhere to put words about how I feel and this seems like the perfect place.
Have you ever left a relationship like this? Did you find it hard?
I would love to hear feedback from others.
Love and Blessings.
Barb
