Does anybody even see these posts.
I don't think they do. I don't even know why I still post on here.
My life hasn't changed at all since my last update. There is still tension at home. Fighting and drama.
I want to make a change but the thought of making changes makes me more afraid than actually changing.
I have complex PTSD. Is that why?
On top of it, I looked at the profile of someone I was in the hospital with. It's a guy.
Of course, Will got upset and mad. I don't blame him. I would be mad at him if he looked up a girls profile.
Do you want to know the truth though?
This guy and I became friends in the hospital. Nothing more than that.
It doesn't even matter though. Will's phone broke a couple of weeks ago and now he has mine.
He's been using it for the last few weeks. I paid the bill last week and I haven't even been able to hold onto it.
It's mine though. Shouldn't I have access to my own phone?
Not in this house I don't.
He told me tonight that I spend to much time on Facebook. He also told me that I needed to give up my dream of building an information marketing business. He told me I am just wasting my time.
How is it his right to decide what I can and cannot do with me? Why did I hand over the reins and allow another human being to decide my life for me?
This blog is all about my journey to getting healthy both mentally and physically. I have spent many years in a place where I was not very happy. Whether it was self inflected or just fate is irrelevant. I want to make a change. I am going to begin putting my life into a whole new perspective. This is my time. Stick around to find out all about what's coming. Follow me on my journey.
Thursday, November 16, 2017
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